all these years, fate has mocked my inability to roam. in almost every year of my life, someone left me for a far-off new home. Canada, South Dakota, Oregon, Hawaii, Singapore, and Ethiopia, among others.
in a few months now, i will be 18. i can go anywhere, money and time permitting. and i have made plans to leave! i will move thousands of miles from my home to live near the faulty levees of new orleans. that's only seven months away, but it feels a long way off. it doesn't feel real yet.
my mother is completely against me moving away, or so i thought. yesterday she informed me that since i did not get in to our over-full community college, she would be sending me to live eight hours away, as far north as you can get in california, on top of shasta mountain. i'll be moving out of my house! but... now that it is real, now that it is happening, i have been getting sadder and sadder. i really do love my family, and it kind of hurt to hear my mother telling me she wanted me out.
she said shasta or santa barbara, really. eight hours in both directions. i don't know anyone in either town, so it doesn't really matter, i guess.
wish me luck?
2 comments:
okay.. i know it's been a freaking LONG ass time... lol. you're probably wondering what crazy freak this is, like "oh no! someone's following my blog!", using all lower-case letters and such! xP no, this is your old friend, from the Midwest… I know you still remember. I do. And I just decided this was a perfect, inconspicuous way to let you know that I miss talking to you like crazy!!! and you may not see this for a long time, maybe not ever. but nonetheless, just want you to know that i’m still alive. haha. I’m still loving music, and I’m still writing, and nothing particularly noteworthy has changed around here. I plan to brush up on a lot of my reading this summer (which is coming soon!), so someday we’ll be able to fully match wits in that way, mwahaha! lol xD okay, so just saying, I hope you’re doing well, you deserve it.. and I’m still sorry about everything, and I miss you lots! we’ll talk again, more, someday, I promise you ^.^ ciao!!! p.s.- I still check up on your blog from time to time, I love reading your words.. you have a wonderful way with them, don’t stop completely =]
i miss you too!!
so much in my life has changed, even in the last few weeks. i suppose i still can't talk to you normally, but maybe i can speak to you about what is happening through my blog, in a way.
i just wish i could hear all about you! :( even if you say nothing has changed, i know that can't be true. Besides, i'd still love to hear you talk about how things are.
like i think i have said already, i miss you like crazy! i've been thinking about you a lot lately, actually... lurking you online :P and considering the risks and benefits of breaking down and sending you an email.
if i'm ever in your part of the world, i'll be sure to let you know. (and i expect the same from you! :P)
i hope you're doing well and loving life... wish i could be there to be your friend.
-kd
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