my brain has obviously liquefied... and that's okay!

I want to live with him inside of the UCSC Arboretum! I want to spend three hours staring intently at a bush; analyzing the flowers and leaves, noting colors and textures and growth patterns and other oddities.

God, I am so inspired. I am so idiotically happy!

I want to break everyone else's rules and then I want to break my own rules.

My brain soared as he explained horticultural mysteries to me and as we both agreed that all the plants are "Beautiful and awesome and cool!"

I want to drive up a steep hill covered in lupin to stare at the waves and wave at the sail boats.

I want to be a part of his world and I want him to be a part of mine.

I shuddered slightly with the happiness, the utter joy of holding his hand.

I want to make him idiotically happy!

Oh boy, this probably makes you gag... unless you remember being my age and being at the start of something wonderful. Something scary and terrifying and beautiful and oh god i am so so so happy.